Sunday, April 11, 2010
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DEDICATING TO HIM ;
you know .. i still love you deeply ?
so deeply that .
i couldnt help ,
every second to think of you ...
you know ?
i cried foryou almost every single day .
every night ..
those things you say to me ..
its like ..
a knife stabbing in to me ..
i seriously wonder ,
did u seriously love me before ?
when i asked for break .
tears just simply rolled down ..
unstoppable ..
you know ?
i know you dont .
i thought ,
we can go through everything..
but no ,
you can , while i cant
i couldnt take it anymore ..
the days me w/o my phone ,
has got no difference with those days me having my phone ..
cus , we dont text much .
i sometimes wonder ,
who are u texting so much that we can just only text each other 1 or 2 only .
honging zharbor like whut peepo says ?
i chose not to believe those words ,
cus i chose to trust u .
i chose not to believe in them ,
cus i love you .
yet ..
you ..
u din care .
yet treat it as ,
thats whut im supoose to do for u.
like its wht im suppose .
like im suppose to cry for you .
your replies .
is .
cold .
the moment you told me tht we should seperate for a moment ,
tears jus rolled down again
and i have to act brave infront of everyone .
not letting them know how i feel .
not letting them get worried .
cus i know ,
gigi would ...
the moment u told me you have not forget ur ex , and thts on 1 april .
i teared again.
jus for you again ..
the time u joked w me that you toying me .
i teared again ..
YET YOU DONT KNOW .
u dont know how many times ive teared for you .
we hardly even msn-ed even when we both are online ..
idw to cry for u anymore ,
you understand ?
i dw to get hurt .
u understand ?
idw to have that kind of feellings anymore .
u understand ?
idw idw idw ..
u hardly even cared for my feelings even ..
if we've got nothing to say , u'll just say bye .
cant u just make an effort to find something to chat ?
the reasons i chose to break
is all up here ..
i seriously dw to tear anymore .
esp for you .
idw to get swollened eye .
i just wannah tell u ,
i still love you .. alotalot ..