I still dont know that youre joking .

Its my fault lur.

You dont understand how i felt when you send me that msg .

I felt like crying yknow ?

But , i was in the effing public .

i merely just wanted to explain to you .

Just explain .

Then everything started alr.

I just hate it when people accuse me .

The fact wasnt what yr say loh .

The fact wasnt what she said .

I dint wnt to go ,

I have reasons behind it .

I really dont want it to come to this stage, you understand ?

I tried to talk as normal , as good , as calm as i could .

But , " -.- , sua , effing & fuck " Just came out of you .

You know i couldnt take all those words .

Yet it came out .

If its other people , i still can understand .

But , i know you for 8 years .

You knew i dislike it . Yet you still use it .

I know you dislike all those words , i tried not to use it .

Every single msg you sent to me ystd ,

made me cry .

I know you wouldnt care much nao .

But , i just want you to know ,

I just wanted to explain to you .

I knw ive promises you those superwoman promises ,

but i cannot open one eyes and close the other when someone say me ,

i cant .

Its not your fault ..

For these 8 years youve been giving in to me ..

I know , you dw me to be sad .

Stop saying its your fault .

Stop making me cry .

this time round , no one is there to comfort me when i cry .

This time round ,youre not here for me when im crying .

The last time when i broke up ,

there was only you to comfort me .

To be there for me ..

I really dw to lose you , you understand

I seriously dw to cry for this thing anymore .

I seriously dw .

My brother just said : Sisi , 你为什么哭在电脑面前？

Im sorry for everything .

What i want nao , is for this thing to stop , for this effing thing to stop .

And things get back to how it was before ..

My tears , just couldnt stop flowing ..

I know youre crying also.

Dont cry .. Im sorry..